Sunshine & Short Films

Do you ever get in one of those moods that turns every song on your iPod into your jam; that makes you feel like running and singing and climbing a mountain? Do you get hit by a sudden positive vibe out of nowhere and find that you just can't sit still, that you have to release all the good stuff inside of you? That's the kinda mood I find myself in right now which probably isn't a good thing since I have things to do tomorrow and it is currently very late at night (or very early in the morning depending on your perspective). But instead of sitting in bed and dwelling on all the things currently filling me with anxiety like I usually do at this time of night I've decided to sit in the dark of my living room and write about this sudden ray of sunshine. It's funny, about an hour ago I wasn't doing so hot; I was dwelling on the aforementioned anxiety and honestly having quite a crappy time of it...But then I put on a Disney short films collection I found on Netflix and at first some of them had me crying and others had me creeped out but then there was one that had me smiling and soon I was laughing and...I dunno, something about the whole thing made me feel better. Before each of the shorts they had some of the people who worked on them talk about the production and there's something that really cheers me up about seeing people talk about something that started as a scribble or a vague idea and then watching the finished product. Okay, I really I sound really silly and probably pretty irresponsible, but the thing is that a good mood like this rarely lasts long so I've learned to cherish them while they last. Now I have a confession, guys. It's kinda something I'm a little embarrassed to mention to my family or friends but since a slim few of the people in my life even know about this blog I suspect this little secret will be safe here. I'm sure this sounds incredibly silly but I really really wish I could work on animated movies; I possess no talent that would be useful in any stage of production but it's a little dream I like to think about sometimes. Something about these movies is just really special me; as I've grown older I've found myself drinking in every detail, a certain swell of music, the way the backgrounds are look, an Easter egg I didn't catch when I was little. I just feel like the kinda stuff Disney puts out can bring something really good into the world and I think it'd be something else to take part in sending it out there. Well, that's gonna be it for now, gang. Until next time. Much Love, Gabby

Holidays, Homesickness, & Hair Color

It's October now. I find myself asking, "Where has the year gone?", I then answer myself, "Up in smoke with all my dreams". Okay, joking aside I'm less jazzed than most people for this month. I'm not really a big Halloween person; I'm a fall person, I like to eat sweet potato bread and have a cinnamon broom in the house, but I don't really dig candy or scary movies as much as everybody else seems to. Normally at this time of year I'd start listening to Christmas music (yes, I'm that person) but this year my brother and I have a pact that we don't start getting festive too early for fear of it jinxing our holiday season. Last year was...less than spectacular. I know it's really stupid and of course it won't make a difference but maybe not listening to the songs and watching the movies early will make everything feel more special this year. As far as other happenings go I'm currently staying at my Titi's house as she's having some problems with her heart and the doctor insisted she rest. So I'm looking after her demon pug that has to be walked about two hundred times a day and general doing my best to lend a helping hand. Pitiful confession time, even though I'm only two minutes away from my house and I'm really homesick. I miss my bed, my dog, watching HGTV with my mom at night, that kinda stuff. I have a TV with cable in the room I'm staying in and I've chosen to watch House Hunters of all things; if that doesn't tell you how attached I am to my routine I don't know what will. It's not like I'm not enjoying my quality family time or anything, I love hanging out with my Titi, it's just that when it comes time to go to sleep my diddly darned anxiety goes into overdrive and suddenly every noise is enough to make me jump out of my skin and I just have this general dark cloud of unease hovering over me. I really need to get this nonsense in check already. On a completely unrelated note I'm thinking about dyeing my hair either dark blue or a mossy shade of green, I probably won't but I'm thinking about it. I doubt I'll ever actually dye my hair again (I used to have orange streaks that then faded to blonde until about a year or so ago), partly because I'm lazy and don't want to deal with upkeep, and then there's the fact that with my luck I'd likely fry my hair. Well, there are two more reasons, the first is that I've heard from people with crazy colored hair that strangers tend to approach you a lot and will sometimes want to touch your head (I encountered such people when I used to have my hair down to my waist and do not feel like dealing with such creepers again), and the second is that I wanna be able to do some casual cosplays that would be better with my natural blackish brown color. I am a master of excuses. Well, that's gonna be it for now, gang. Until next time. Much Love, Gabby